Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Watching Passion of Christ Day 12 to 26 - Taming my tongue in 30 days

Oh yeah, I'm guilty again!
I lost my track of watching The Movie.
First, I feel so weak when doing so. Imagine watching your God, being scourged every day.

I stopped watching, I think about a week ago.
I replaced it by listening to Christian Rock Music almost every day.

But hey, I have something to tell you. It's my "gossiping tongue problem".
Maybe, it is something that I acquired as a public health nurse.
I noticed that I find it really hard to stop talking.

I bought a book called " Taming your Tounge in 30 days".
This book answered my prayer so that I will be aware when to stop.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Passion of Christ Day 10 and 11 - Stressed? Get out and take some Pizza

I am restless since yesterday.
The pain of " I'm still don't know what my passion is" kills me flesh by flesh.
I feel that I should resign from my current job and go somewhere far away from home again.

After work, I went out and date treat myself with a pizza.
Yum, Yum, it makes me feel better.
I start writing what I feel into words.

When I got home, I watched Marie Forleo's Vid and it made my day.
Passion is not a one thing deal. Because Passion is something that we should do everyday.
See, even dying and suffering from the Cross can be a Passion. ;)

God Loves YOU,

Ann :)

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Watching Passion of Christ Day 4, 5 , 6 , 7 , 8, and 9 - Can't Commit with Promises? Move on!

I spent my Holy Week with my family.
It was indeed a great week because my parents also celebrated their 29th anniversary.
But regarding my commitment of watching The Passion of Christ in 365 days, I felt that I failed.
It was like: "here we go again; cheesy promises today and forget it tomorrow.

I used to blame myself for being tardy.
But this time, I decided that instead of mourning in breaking a promise, I will just stand again and continue.

And that is why, even if I almost forget to watch The Passion of  Christ, I move on.
Don't be too hard on yourself. It is not to perfect the routine, but to harvest the reason of why you wanted to do the act.

Monday, April 14, 2014

Passion of Christ Day 3 : Watch your words

Today is different.
I wrote this blog before watching the movie.
I felt guilty this day because I uttered unkind words to someone I loved.

Ahhh... I got pissed of and I believe that I have the right to say what I felt no matter how bad it sounds.

But words are mightier than sword.
I told my colleagues about the shortcomings of the person. I felt so bad and I wish I can just shut my mouth and never talk again.

Next time, I will see to it that I will not do this again.
If I feel the urge of saying something "not so sweet" about someone, I will pray first.

Words can build, but it can also destroy.

We have a choice.

God loves YOU.

Ann :)

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Sunday, April 13, 2014

Passion of Christ Day 2 - Are you tempted? PRAY HARD.

This was the 2nd day where I watched the film again.
I didn't finish it because I have a church service as a choir.
But then, I am happy that I still kick my butt and watch even if I don't feel like doing this today.

I have no idea what to write, except that today I am also carrying a burden, not mine but from a friend.

Out of the blue, I texted her if she can join me for a walk yesterday.
I didn't know that my best friend had a great burden inside her.

It is too personal that I choose not to share it here.
But the point is, I think her problems is far too heavy for her.
What happened is unimaginable that even me got shocked.

Knowing myself, I know that I am a selfish person.
I care only about ME. I care only about MY problems, MY fear, and MY dreams.

But yesterday, I feel myself differently.
I feel that I do care for her genuinely.

I feel that this heart is not my heart. I feel that God created a fast heart transplant in me.

I tamed my tongue not to tel her secret to anyone.
I respected her. And I really feel her pain.

I was happy to listen and tried not to open my mouth to boast about me.

My friend needs someone who will listen to her and I was so happy that she trusted me.

After what happened, I know that somehow, her heart was lifted up.

I know that it is lighter for her now.

When I got home, I feel that my tongue itches to share it with my mom and my boyfriend.

But I remembered how Satan tempt Jesus to give up when Our Lord was praying in the garden of Gethsemane. During time of great temptations, Jesus prayed and so do I.

I prayed that the Holy Spirit tied my tongue so as not to tell a secret entrusted to me. So that my tongue will only tell words of encouragement, gratitude and love.

The second day I watched The Passion of Christ made me remember to always pray when you are tempted.

It's powerful!

And hey, I noticed that my skin is glowing today. Really!

God loves YOU,

Ann :)

Photo Credit : http://flowingzen.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/12/from-the-heart-hands.jpg

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Passion of Christ DAY 1 - Why I started this Diary

It is Holy Week Season AGAIN.
For many, this is the time where people visit churches, pray , and confess.
For others, this the time for fasting, prayer , and renewal of faith.
For some, this is the time to visit Boracay and enjoy the beach.
But every year, for me, this is the time where I should watch the Passion of Christ.
For me, it is a very important movie.
I know that somehow, it far away from what really happened before.
But as a Christian, I really appreciate that Mel Gibson produced this movie.

Whenever I watched this movie. My heart breaks.
Who will not seeing my God being punished from all my sins?
The result? I will immediately transformed into caring, lovable, and forgiving me.
But 24 hours later, I will fall for sin again, again, and again.

So a "what if" idea came as I watched this movie 10th time.
What will happen if I watched this movie everyday for 365 days?
Well that's an idea. But afterwards, I begin bargaining: what if i'll just watched it for 30 days.

Knowing me, I have this habit of giving it a good start but failure to carry on. (Guilty gal!)

But I know, come what may. This blog will be a test of faith, and I am excited of what I will become after.

God Loves YOU,

Ann  :)